Asa

Today I took Asa to see Avatar… just the two of us. It was awesome! (both the movie AND our quality time)  No baby sister to try to talk over or share attention with. He was so excited and had a little hop in his step as he held my hand into the theater. He also held my hand as we watched the movie. It was sweet. Asa will be 5 this May and I know my days are numbered with the hand holding business. Gosh I will miss that when it’s gone! Watching him grow up so fast scares the crap out of me, to put it bluntly. With every passing day he is becoming more and more independant and I just wish things could slow down. Unfortunately with this new found independance has come defiance. Lots and lots of defiance. Never ending defiance. Pull-your-hair-out defiance. Why-am-I-debating-with-a-4-year-old defiance. Ok you get the idea. He is a free spirit and rules be DAMNED he will do what he wants! Is it possible to be anti-establishment at the ripe ol’ age of 4? If not, I think we might have our first case here. lol. And much to his parents dismay, most days do consist of arguments, tantrums and timeouts. As any mother, I do worry about this. Are we doing the right things? Will this phase EVER pass? Do I need to call Super Nanny on his ass? Will he be a good boy when he grows up?  Will he use his powers for good not evil?   Will he still love his mother? These questions swirl in my brain constantly.  Things have been tough with him, I’m not gonna lie. But today was good. Awesome in fact. It brought to light how much I adore this child.  And really miss him. As much as I wish, children do not come with manuals. We do our best, take the good days with the bad, and  hope and pray everything turns out right.